Sleep is caught and then it easily escapes, so begins the midnight run through of the thoughts that weigh on your mind waiting to be filed away.
- This one is placed in “great laughs”
- That needs to go into “to do”
- Ah yes, here is a new “lesson learned”
- Another one moves into “memories”
It always seems like there are one or two that you can’t find a place for. No solution. Not able to truly understand so no category seems right to file it away in. These build up slowly adding to the darkness weighing down your mind.
You protectively skip over the thoughts that are too much to face and continue to focus on the less challenging. In hopes that if you show them no attention they will disappear and leave you. Rarely though, is it ever that simple. You find yourself focused on the darkness of those looming thoughts, wondering if you will ever find a placement for them. Will they continue to build until you are trapped under their weight and forced to face them?
You realize the unplaced thoughts always pertain to the part of your life that has left you incomplete. That itself should count as the category! So the question begs to be asked, why are these same thoughts present night after night
- Is this some cosmic joke as your life challenge that will only be over once you find a way to file all your thoughts and truly be ok with the results?
- Is there anyone truly happy in every aspect of their life?
- Is there such a thing as being completely whole?
- Or, are we born whole and life is what adds the cracks to make us become incomplete?
The process continues down its nightly path until your mind is filled again with cluttered thoughts and unanswered questions. You settle yourself on the fact that no one can really have all the answers. This statement crosses your mind just in time each night to ease the intensity of the building darkness. Then you are left with the one question that weighs most heavily each night….
Are you ever going to escape the midnight run?
