Friday, February 20, 2015

Baby steps

The soul usually knows what to do to heal itself. The challenge is to silence the mind! 

Saturday, February 14, 2015

Help Wanted...

It takes ten times longer to put yourself back together than it does to fall apart.
I dream of a love that even time will lay down in and be still for.
Can you love me pass my pain?

Tuesday, February 10, 2015

Victims of War

When my mind loses and my heart and soul take control. These are the days when the thoughts of you become overwhelming. Panic threatens to take over. My chest tightens making breathing nearly impossible. The dull ache reverts into the bottomless black hole I struggle to pull myself out of. My heart and soul ache for you sending a message to my entire body that it will never be whole again without you. I know I can not take anymore of the torment. My mind screams constant reminders to my heart: he will never change, he will always revert to hurting you, he will leave you at any time  regardless of how much you love him,  he can replace you with any woman who tells him what he wants to hear, he will never be there when you need him the most. My heart provides a simple steady message to my mind: he has realized his mistake and will never do those things again, you love him do not give up! My soul aligns with the heart to add the knowledge of the empty feeling is not a want rather a need to have you close to me. I'm losing the war of mind against heart and soul. 

Right as I reach the breaking point of caving into my hearts and souls desires I see it. Your weapon of words that show your actions and the lack of change,  spewing venom and lies. Prove your cluelessness of what I need from you, who I truly am and how dearly I still love you.  The irony, an intended weapon becomes a salvation to prove my mind correct against the battle of  my heart and soul. These words meant to wound have betrayed your purpose. Instead they are an ally instantly bringing my mind back in control of the war. My heart and soul are quieted once again to refocus their attention toward the pain caused by truth. 

The war is over its victims claimed.... until tomorrow. 

Friday, February 06, 2015

Value

Even broken things have value... or so he once said. Yet the day she gave him her fragile heart he waded it up and threw it away.