Thursday, October 10, 2013

Dream of Lies

Her eyes fluttered open to see a prince standing before her. Though she was leery he won her over with his whispered promises. He swore himself different than those who broke her heart and brought her to her slumber. His hand outstretched he waited patiently until finally it met with hers. He slowly brought her back to her feet.

Woken from her peaceful rest she is brought into his world shattered. Her heart in pieces, her mind struggling to gain control so not to repeat her past. Silently she becomes more and more aware that her mind is loosing its battle. What she once thought impossible, pieces slowly begin to feel love.

She could not foresee the price at which this love will cost. This love is not created the same as her past. It's weighted heavier, stronger with a powerful pull that is indescribable by mere words. Love flowing into a broken vessel has no other option but to run through its many cracks falling deep into her soul to grow.

The prince sees the change in her, doubt being replaced by faith. He drops his veil releasing his true nature. His vows are replaced by excuses of when his promises will be made true.

Her eyes desperately seek his in search of her prince that set out long ago to be her savior. He can not hold the lies from her any longer. What hope he had created in her is replaced with sorrow in her eyes and a mourning in her soul.

A sinking feeling pours down deep into her depths washing the reality over her. Realization that her prince was her ultimate demise. She was woken with a kiss only to chase a dream of lies!

Sunday, October 06, 2013

Deep wound

Days like today when I finally feel fine and then thoughts of you creep into my mind. It's the daily reminder that I can't escape. I'm still hopelessly in love with a man who no longer exists.

I've been here before. Down a dark painful path. Left only with shattered pieces of hope. Struggling to convince myself I don't care.

You could not see the man I saw. You were incapable of loving yourself so how could I have thought you could actually love me? I'm disappointed and heartbroken that you could make me feel as if I wasn't enough.

I hold tight to the sleepless nights and the pain. It's all I have left to remind me why these walls should never again be broken. I have to burry the secret hopes that your promises were true and this is just a bad dream. Say goodbye to the hopeless romantic beliefs that you will come back to wake me from this nightmare. It was done once with just a simple kiss, but that was a time when possibilities were believed to be endless.